Held by Natalie Grant

To all those people who deal with the pain of Mother’s day remember Jesus is holding you in his arms and he has held you since the day you were born. Jesus understands.

As I sit here this morning trying to find the words to begin this is difficult. I dread Mother’s Day. I will be honest I hate it. I don’t like it. One day on the Calendar I wish I could just bypass. Don’t get me wrong I am thankful for both of my mother’s. My birth mother and my adoptive mother.

The pain in mother’s day for me is never being able to have children.  After several years of trying to have a child we decided to see the infertility specialist. I wasn’t even at the infertility specialist for a full week and then I got the call from the doctor saying I am sorry but I can’t help you. He proceeded to tell me that if I had become pregnant it would have killed me. I was devastated. I could not look at a pregnant woman of even a newborn baby for a year. It was heartbreaking.

I am fine with not having any children, but when mother’s day comes the pain hits hard. It is brutal. I just want that day to hurry up and get over with. I deal with many difficult emotions that day and I stay home from church that day. I am not one that can hide my emotions very well so I don’t go. I want to cry when everyone is saying Happy Mother’s Day. I want to run from it. I have a hard time going to church and seeing all the Mother’s get something and then to have drawings on top of that. It makes me want to just burst out in tears and it makes me sick to see all that go on. I would think that the church in general would be more understanding towards those that are hurting on mother’s day and just get a gift for every woman in the church and leave it at that.  I will say that I am thankful to be in a church where my Pastor understands why I don’t attend church on Mother’s day. It is too painful of a day.

For those that are mother’s I hope I didn’t upset you and I hope that you do have a wonderful mother’s day, but if you know a woman who is going to have a hard time that day let her know that you are thinking about her, praying for her, if you see her sad give her a hug, or get her a card that says I am thinking of you. Little things like this go a long ways.

Sherry Hensley is a Pro-Life Speaker in Maryland-Conceived in Rape, saved from an illegal abortion. She is married to Fred Hensley. Sherry enjoys inspiring others and sharing her faith. Fred and Sherry attend Bethel Christian Center in Havre de Grace, Maryland.